Date: 30 Nov 2019, 4.07pm
“When I was 18, a teacher told me I had a nice back, & I believed him. It has been a few years, but sometimes, I still feel his fingers on my back. But we were /nothing/. I don’t like how my body remembers.
I self-harm. I usually cut but with my back, I do moves on the hoop (I learn aerial) that I know will cause burns - that will scar. I want my body to hurt, to be marked, but still I hide.
I should love my back - it is hypermobile, incredibly flexible but I hate the rolls, as if my stomach rolls aren’t enough.”